Today's topic for Blogtember is:
Monday, September 16: Write a public love letter to someone in your life. (It doesn't necessarily need to be romantic.)
I had no idea who I was going to write this to until I received a phone call earlier this evening. Now I know exactly.
Before I start this off, I do want you to know that I do love you and care about you very much, but this has got to stop. You don't realize how you are affecting me, my family, Alli and everyone else in your family that cares about you. Every little fault you find with others, is really a fault you find in yourself. You told me tonight that you are disappointed in yourself, well only YOU can change that!! We have all done everything we can for you. Emotionally, physically and financially. It's time for you to "be the bigger person" and repay everyone in all ways possible. Do you have any idea how it feels to be "parenting" my parent? It really sucks! The main reason I don't call you for chats or spend time with you is because you have so many different sides and I never know which one I'm going to get. Tonight I had happy dad, angry dad, depressed dad and deflated dad. It's fine for me to deal with (actually no it's not!) but I don't want my kids to have to see that. I just don't see how you think we have all abandoned you, when there is one person in your life that has "helped" you push us all away. You think you need her, but she does nothing for you and you know it. She has caused you (and everyone who loves you) so much pain. You are NOT the person you were before her. I know she's not the only one to blame. You are too. You need to break the cycle!! Before it's really too late. My heart is really hurting for you after our talk. I just don't know what to do anymore. I really do love you..........you are my dad after all.